I hate it here, I miss home. I guess I’m getting a little homesick. But I don’t wanna go back either. I’d rather just disappear into an abyss. Blah, my brain chemicals are all wacky. Maybe I should get some sleep. 

I just read your letter, I wanna say thank you, and I love you so much, I know that this relationship isn’t a boyfriend girlfriend thing but I know that when I am with you, you really do make my day a lot better. Your like my escape, when things are going bad, I go to you, because you always know how to cheer me up. So I can’t stop thinking about you right now, I’m gonna miss you for a whole month, you know its actually weird not seeing you for day, and then getting back to my normal schedule, but I hope everything works out for and your family with the moving situation. I’m trying to right as much as I can, Im on a crunch time because my flights in 30 minutes. But anyways, go be free, do what you please, but just know that when I come back I’ll tell you everything, and everything. I promise. Just do the same for me ok? But I hope you have a fun time without me, try not to think about me too much because then it’ll just ruin your whole month without me :) And, don’t worry I’ll get you some gifts. I’m actually kinda scared of going on a plane again, but hopefully we have a safe trip. But I gotta go now, were leaving ok. I’ll make your video when we land. Love you.

i wanna get some coffee and smoke some ganja. its one of those nights right now.

seeing you for that split second made me smile, i thought about you. i’ve been thinking about you lately. each morning. but its clear to me now that your heart broke, on that night. you let go of me. not one call, not one text, not one word. this is what i wanted, right?

i don’t think its gonna workout.

your crazy.

blow a portion of my brain into this century, people won’t remember me, i’m not a courageous, i didn’t take chances, and for that, i made no advancements, trying to play safe, should never be the case, fuck the rules, the role models, and all who doubt me, say inconsiderate language just to frown me, so i stand up on my feet, and look astounding, saying i’m better than you, it could never be so frightening. i never really looked at the consequences, i tried to make every move right, like my conscience made it, no worries, no reason to fight, but i guess my moves are wrong or maybe thats just the way its supposed to be, because were either animals, beast, or divine beings. which once you choose, is totally up to you, you can make a right path, like it was made for you, but if not then i guess you’ve just fallen from the top, its either lust caught your ankles, or you never just stopped….. to think, is what your really doing is true, are you really that stupid and ignorant too, i hope not, because many people can relate to many people, so to say that your special, is merely just little.

bad bitch. lol